it's been almost 2 months
it's been almost 2 months since i last went to church... i dunno wat is going thru my mind sometimes... i miss the feeling of being able to be at an environment where i can connect with God, an environment where i can feel the love for God from the people around me...but sad to say, at the same time, I feel really out of place in church... I noe u guys have been trying to encourage me back to church... but i sincerely think that it's jus something that I have to go thru alone... I miss you all...the blading, the eating, the cok tokking... and of cos our cell group meetings together... but at the same time... I do feel that I cannot fit in... my tots and beliefs are so different.. I'm not as 'proper' nor 'decent'... anyhow...when the day i'm back...it's because i feel that i can finally fit in the group and feel comfortable... and I hope that when the day comes, u guys will still welcome me like you did before...au revoir!
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hi karen. this is michelle here. sorry if i am not supposed to be lurking around here. but i couldn't help but to drop you a note when i read your entry.
you don't have to be "proper" nor "decent" to fit into church. trust me. i have been through things (although i am not as senior as you all) but some of the ephraim members can probably tell you how i was when i was younger. i was not "proper" nor "decent" as well. definitely not. and it was a pain growing up in a church environment, behaving the way i wanted to as well.
but eventually, through God's grace and the love of the brothers and sisters around me, i have seen the light. Christ came for the weak, the poor and the outcast. He didn't come for those who had so much, He came for those who had nothing.
be encouraged to know that God sees beyond what we are, and is looking for the opportunity to mould us through who we are.
shalom,
michelle
The more we stay away from God the further we will feel and the further we will drift.
Come back. He is welcoming you with open arms. Likewise, we are all waiting for you to come back.
Mai tu liao
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